Again..RINDU ini bertandang lagi..

mesej dari sahabat..

Atie : 'Bila diri diulit rindu, kasihnya kerana yang SATU..

biar bibir asyik membisu, namun hatinya tetap merindu,

indahnya persaudaraan terukir di memori, kenangan lalu

terpahat di hati, diri ini banyak kekurangan, namun

ukhuwah yang terjalin itu hadiah dari tuhan!! andai awan

bisa bersuara..andai pena bisa berkata2, andai bibir bisa

meluahkan bicara, pasti akan tersingkap segala rasa..namun

diriku tetap diriku, tetap sendirian bertemankan sepi,

walau jauh 1000 batu , ukhwah kita tetap di hati..ana

sayang anti..salam jihad~'

Tmey : 'pertemuan ini besar ertinya padaku.aku telah

dianugerahkan Allah insan bergelar sahabat..menyedarkan

hidup ini hanya untuk ilahi.meneguhkan diri ketika aku

hanyut di buai mimpi..ukhuwah ini tak perlu di ungkap

namun dapat dirasai. Moga kita disatukan hati menegakkan

deen yang suci..'

Asma' : 'sahabatku sayang,ku rindu kan saat kita bersama..

berjemaah dalam setiap ma'ruf..mengingatkan diriku menjauhi

perkara mungkar..Di saat doa rabitah terbit di bibir mu,

kenanglah kami sahabat2 mu, moga hati2 kita sentiasa bertemu..

menjulang kalimah akbar yang SATU..~hug~'

(terase betul pelukan asma')huhu..rindu..

Wani : ....(yg depan2 ni kene rahsiakan :b)..rindu yang selalu buat

wani sedih..wani rindu sangat semua yang kita buat sama2..

dan banyak lagi mesej sahabat2...yang xdapat dipamerkan atas

sebab2 tertentu..

ana nak tulis mesej yang ana bg shbt2..tp bila ana carik balik..

rupenye ana da delete..sbb ana pun xtahan ngan kate2 tu..

hehe( ape punye kes la kan?? :B)

yang pasti...airmata ini menitis lagi..rindu itu kadang2 menyakitkan

kerana aku serasa mahu kembali ke masa lalu..menghargai tiap

detik yang kita lalui bersama...namun aku mengerti..rindu itu

anugerah dr ilahi..agar hati kite sentiasa bertaut...kerna itu aku

tidak pernah membenci airmata yang tumpah apabila rindu

mengamit lagi...semalam aku menangis..kerana aku rindu...hari

ini juga..kerana mesej sahabat yg merindui jemaah yang kita selalu

lakukan bersama...dan aku juga ingin kau tahu yang aku juga rindu..

lantas doa rabitah lancar ku alunkan dibibir..moga ukhuwah terus

tersemat di dalam doa dan qalbu ku..wajah seorang demi seorang melintas

di pandangan hati ku..

tatkala aku mengangkat takbir..menjadi imam buat adik2 dan

keluarga ku..aku rindu menjadi imam kepada sahabat2...rindu

juga menjadi makmum kepada sahabat..rindu juga kepada rules

yg telah kite persetujui bersama biarpun bukan di atas

tandatangan yg sah( siapa lambat, dia imam :b )hehe..

hatiku merenggut..airmata bergenang..namun ku yakini perpisahan

ini ada beribu hikmah yang tersirat...sudah lama aku nntikan..

untuk meluahkan rindu ini di dalam blog..namun aku cuba

bertahan..tapi mesej yg datang arini..menyebabkan jari jemari

laju menaip (biarpun terpaksa memotong line adik2 yang sedang

bermain games)..huhu..sori fawwaz,kemal n maira

aku tidak mahu lagi menangis ( ada insan yg tahu macamana

teruknya kalo aku menangis..kan kak kan??hehehe)..aku rindukan

masa itu..namun hakikatnya..masa itu sudahpun berlalu..

menjadi secangkir kenangan buat kita semua..

rindu aku..

• rebut2 kite menentukan siapa yang akan jadi imam (selalunye..hehe..did not mention her name cause some reasons)
• bace doa makan same2
• nyanyi nasyid same2 (kuat2 pulak tu..haih..apelah erti berjiran..sori ek asmah n kak awin)
• nyanyi lagu 'aspalela' dan lagu 'hanya kau yang mampu..'( ini lagi la..ntah bpe kali ulang..penat apek ngan aizat tu nyanyi )
• belajar sama2
• kejut bangun same2 (erk??yeke??)
• stay up same2 ( kadang 2 ler )
• gelak sama2..(haih..ni kalo bakal mak mertua dengar kita gelak..mcm2 leh jadi..heheh)

kalo ade lagi..sahabat2 leh tolong tambahkan ek..

dan macam2 lagi yang kite wat sama2..

thanks akak( kak zalina kamaruddin)..rumah akk jadi
tempat berkumpul kitorang..maaf selalu buat sepah,

buat bising, buat geram (wt akak geram..hehe) sbb

selalu kenekan akak..apepun..akak memang macam

mak kitorang kat TAYLORS..eh silap..kat RIDZUAN

B2207..eh..kire dua2 tempat la..

walaupun ape yang terjadi lepas ni..

kite niatkan pertemuan dan perpisahan yg sementara

ini kerana Allah..moga kite termasuk dlm golongan yg

mendapat naungan Allah di mana tiada naungan lagi

selain lindungan DIA..amin..

wakafkan diri diatas jalan perjuangan..

kita akan bertemu suatu hari nanti..biarpun bukan lagi

di RIDZUAN..atau di TAYLORS..tp yakinlah..kita akan

bertemu di SYURGA..

kerana SYURGA itu mahal harganya..lalu berusahalah
sepenuh hati untuk menggapainya...moga SYURGA jadi

milik kita semua..moga perjumpaan kita..adalah di SYURGA

sana..kerana disitu pertemuan yang abadi dan hakiki...

kalo rindu..nangis je..hehe..sbb..IMAN ( watak guy yg suke

TIARA dlm cte MUTIARA kate, yg airmata tu..Allah jadikan

untuk ditumpahkan..kalo simpan pun jadi taik mata je..hehe)

selayang tinta buat mu sahabat...

SADIQATI itu ertinya sahibah..juga yang membenarkan..

thanks kerana sentiasa mempercayai aku selama kita

berteman..thanks kerana sering memperingati aku tatkala

aku lupa akan fitrah sebagai seorang hamba..thanks kerana

sering di sisi tatkala aku buntu bantuan sahabat..thanks..

syukrn YA ILAHI..Kau hadirkan aku sahabat2 yang sering

membawa aku ke jalan MU..terimakasih Allah..moga hati

kami terus bertaut kepada Mu dan kerana MU

YA ALLAH..ubati rindu ini...amin..

PUT YOUR TRUST ON ALLAH..thanks Sahabat..

At first I come to taylors, only one girls I know..

i am not close with her..we just knowing each other

through YM..but the things that make me contact

her before I came to taylors because we came from

the same type of school..and I really2 respect her..

as she is KISASIAN..hehe..first time I saw her, when

i attend a camp after SPM..she really make me impressed

with her..her calmness, her confident..and many more..

After a year, every single problems I share with her..

by knowing that she is the one who always give her best

for me..her advise will make me think positive for every

problems that I have go through..and we always cry

together when we feel that you and me are the people

that Allah has give a responsible to change TAYLORS..

is not about taylors actually but the muslim there..its a

huge responsible to make all the muslim in here, realize

their duty as khalifah Allah..its not easy..almost every

time, when my friend and I met, we will hug and crying..

She sacrifice her time..come along to RIDZUAN…if she

know that I need her..if she know that I am alone..cause

she know that I always keep all the things, all the problem

and hard to share with other people except certain people

that I close to..

But one day (its after second semester break), I met your

housemate, and ask about you..cause I feel that I have

MISS something..she like keep something from me..i beg

to her to tell me what it is..cause I can feel that the news

is important..its all about you..and I have to know..finally,

she tell me..

You get other scholarship and you want to further your

study to Mesir and you want to quit from your current

scholarship..i smile..thanks..and what I said to her

housemate, as her friend we have to support her..

When I arrive at my home..My mind stop to think,I try

hard not to cry…I know, whatever you decision, as your

friend, I need to support you…I know if I am not there

to support you..who else??

Its hard..but I want the best for you..as what you have

done for me for a year…you have done a lot for me, my

dear..asif jiddan..i am sorry to always bothering you..

make you always worried about me..

The one things that I cannot forget..you are good in keep

your secret..one day, I dunno why..but I realize that only

me, the one who keep telling you about my problems, crying

in front of you..but I forget something..its hard to hear from

you, your problems and I insist you to tell me about your life..

Your story make me cry..touched about your story..beyond

your calmness, beyond your strength..beyond your smile,

you hold huge secret..that I never know..and never bother

to know..i m so sorry…I am busy to tell you about my

troubles and never bored to hear your advice..until I forget

about important things, I forget you my friend..asif..that day,

I again crying..but now, I m not crying about my problems..

but

I cry because I am angry with my attitude..i hate myself

..as a friend..i never learn to be a good friends..

i am sorry sahabat..

You hug me..you tell me that this is not my fault..you say that

its all had happened..you already accept it as a fact and that’s

the reason you dont want to tell me about that..you ask me

not to cry because you don’t want to cry..as you know that

Allah has choose you to go through your hard life cause you

are the one who are stronger enough than others..you also

persuade me that Allah has give us variety of characteristic..

and I have my own advantages…

I am crying on your shoulder

..thanks..for every moment that you have spend for me..for

every single that you have tell me and make me become

stronger..i will never forget all the thing that you have given

to me..you make me learn about the meaning of strong, patient

and REDHA..i have learn from you how to put our trust on ALLAH..

Put your trust on ALLAH..cause ALLAH will give THE BEST

for you..HE always there to hear your DOA’..thus, never forget

to pray…cause it can heal you for any harm..believe me??

BELIEVE ON ALLAH..

A RUDE STUDENT..AM I??

At taylors, I saw many things, I learn about the real life

that I have go through..sometimes, I feel sick..sick to

see the girls and guys who admit that they are muslim

but never practices the deen itself..

wearing a veil but

still hold the guys hand..

guys that can elaborate islam

in best ways but cannot practice it..I

feel sick surrounded

by those people..

To be the daiee for my deen, I try to be patient.

.i know that its hard to make all those people love

islam n make them to get islam as the way of their

life..

and after the discussion with my best friend

(the first shbt that I got in taylors)..we agreed to

start with da’wah bilhal ( da’wah with our actions

and good akhlak)..

i try to respect all my teachers,

eventhough I know I am too quiet in class (cause

I know I have low self confident)

I know, the respect that I give them, give big impact

to them..some of my teachers will respect me as a

muslim..

they not underestimated me and try to give

their best to help me in my studying..

thanks for all

my teachers..may ALLAH bless you..my pray always

there for you all

But, the day that I never thought come..on Monday..

I am fasting on that day..i come early to my clas..

i pray hard and ask from Allah to make all my works goes

smoothly..first period is my ESL subject..

my teacher come and give a good news to us..

hehe..he will not going to teach today and we can watch a video..

all students become excited..including me.

.’what a good day,start with watcing a video!!’
I start to tidy up my table..to focus on the video..

The video started..it just nice.starting..starts with the

cute children call her mom and dad..but..

5 minutes later, I feel uneasy..the video makes me sick..

make me feel ashamed to be there..

15girls and 15guys in my class..i dunno what they think

when all the XX scene is played in front of us..i am fasting.

.i am headache..i just close my eyes..hope that all this will

over..hope that XXX

scene is just for a while..

But its not!!the sound make me feel want to vomit..

for first time, I be a rude student by going out from my

class without teacher’s permission..

I am sorry ALLAH..i am confused..whether I do the right

thing or not..i know that the teacher will feel irrespected by

me..but I dunt have a choice..i have to go..i cannot breath

in that class..i need a space..i m sorry teacher..

I am very sorry..i have to do that..i have my own principe..

I try hard to respect all my teachers..but when my principal,

my deen is being pledge..i have to hold my dignity..i love my

deen..i love my iman..i am sorry to be rude on that day..cause

I know that is the best way for me to take care of my iman..

i am sorry teacher..may ALLAH bless you

Hope that is the best resolution that I had take..

SOLDIER OF ALLAH..are you ready???

In the name of Allah, the most gracious ant the most merciful.. I m on behalf your slave ( O Allah), I m back..to write something about ISLAM..my life is easy.. I born as a muslim..but somehow, I m again thinkng about to be a good muslim, I have to know what I want to achieve in this short period of time..the time will come(DEATH)..the time that I cannot do anything for me myself and to my religion ISLAM..before the time is come, I have to do something that beneficial for me and all muslim over the world..

stand up mujahidah!! You have to wake up..wake, stand and planned with organized strategy..you will be the good and excellent muslimah..believe me??
BELIEVE ON YOUR GOD, ALLAH..

To All my friends

Sometimes we think that our journey is hard when we become older..as we learn more about life, we seem to feel that life is really unpredictable..but hold this tight in your heart..we are nothing without ISLAM..however..

"WE ARE SOMETHING WITH ISLAM"
( we are all aljundi for ALLAH, lets committee to HIM,ALLAHUAKBAR!!)


To ALLAH..

ASIF JIDDAN..please forgive me, ALLAH..because sometimes, when I feel I am alone, I felt..i cannot stand alone..i dun have the strange to continue the duty that You have given to me..asif ya Allah..after a long time, I decide to come back,please make me tough to go through all the problems, to solve all the things that hard to be understand..please make me calm..to accept all the fact that you have equipped
for me..please ALLAH, create Your love in my heart..thus, one time when love is needed for my sahabah, for my husband, my children and my family, the love is contained with my greatest love for you, ALLAH..

"I LOVE YOU, ALLAH.."
(preserved my love for You until I meet You in JANNAH..eternal love..)

To Me Myself..

Remember your promised..ALLAH, my life is just for ALLAH..perhaps, my life is for ISLAM..i know that I have thousand of kekhilafan..until today, I do a lot of mistakes..i do nothing for ISLAM..

Please farhanah, stand up, find urself again..you want to be mujahidah solehah..and you have to dare for it..the payment for JANNAH is expensive..you will not able to pay unless you contribute you yourself to be jundi for ALLAH..(allow me to seek ur forgiveness, ALLAH)forgime me, forgive each wrong doing that I have done..

My principal, even n forever insha-ALLAH

"INTANSURULLAHAYAN SURUKUM”

(Help ALLAH and the deen, ISLAM and ALLAH will there to help you)